Keep at it Cummins.

Despite the fact my condition that I thought I had dealt with at Leven House reared it's distgusting ugly head again and harder than ever, I agree with this meme. 

Despite the fact that my abusers and neglecters and perhaps some of my genetic make up are to be held responsible, I have the ownership and accountability of my condition. 

I wish I knew then what I know now and had the support I have now, 4 or 5 years ago or more because I wouldn't have lost the one person I held dear to me, I don't think. I wouldn't have been so horrible to her and self destructive.

I'm growing into the best person I have ever been now. Would have loved to have shared that with her. Still, I can share it with my chosen few now instead and build on it, keep growing, keep healing, be a better version of me more and more. 

More work to do yet though. Always will be. Everyday. 

Keep at it Cummins. 

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