When You Feel Like You Can't Because of mental illness. I can’t.
Well, I can’t right now.
One day in the future I can; as long as you’re willing to bend and stretch your definition of what “can” is. It’s not that I don’t want to. I can’t overcome it by positive thinking. I can’t “just do it.” I’m not lazy. I’m not making up excuses. I’m not weak.
I can’t because I’m the brain that’s swallowed by panic and fear.
I can’t because I’m the brain that’s overstimulated and overw
Why was I hurting myself like I was? People with Borderline Personality Disorder sometimes engage in acts of self harm. I was. These acts of self harm are wide ranging; they’re also dramatic and startling in many cases. Horrible to witness too of course. I owe appologies. These behaviors include:
Blunt force trauma: This type of self harm includes banging one’s head on a hard surface, punching oneself, and using a hammer or other tool to inflict damage and pain to the body.
I have literally thousands of images to work through yet and upload but slowly and surely images are being uploaded. Link in the menu or here: Click me. Go on. Click me. #ruffrootcreative #boscombeart #bpdboscombe #bpdarttherapy #markcummins #bpdrecovery
Some of these are from the UK and some from France and some from Germany. I will upload the whole series to flickr once I finish pulling a few more of my hard drive and SDD cards and editing them. I am facinated with Brutalism. Ugly yet so alluring. The angles. The stark concrete brashness. I love it. I hate it. A series in progress. #architecture #canon #markcummins #brutal #boscombe
Image by me, Mark. Copyright? Naaa, help ya self. Not a new one but still a favourite. A poem I like: Fall, leaves, fall; die, flowers, away;
Lengthen night and shorten day!
Every leaf speaks bliss to me,
Fluttering from the autumn tree...
(Emily Bronte) 🍂 #autumnbpd #fallreflection #fallandreflect #markcummins
This is a note I wrote,
So that every time I open myself to others,
They know how they’re going to cope.
This is my trigger warning note.
I am funny.
On the first three months we made our conversation so heavy,
That every dream we’ve shared has turned into reality.
Every word, every detail of our words is insanity.
Well that’s crazy.
I can be so hyper,
Energetic, overactive. My smiles get bigger
And wider every time we see each other. Your tra