I've not self harmed for over a year it occured to me today. I've not cut for 17 months. Break through. Next corner to turn is going T total. Not gone well so far but I will get it right and make that break through too. I have to walk away from the pub culture. It does me no good anymore. Just a habit. And a lot will follow on the back of breaking that habit of a lifetime. A 26 year habit. I will get my fitness back. Fat or not fucking fat. I will. I. Will. Do. This. For me.