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Over a year.

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Over a year.

I've not self harmed for over a year it occured to me today. I've not cut for 17 months. Break through. Next corner to turn is going T total. Not gone well so far but I will get it right and make that break through too. I have to walk away from the pub culture. It does me no good anymore. Just a habit. And a lot will follow on the back of breaking that habit of a lifetime. A 26 year habit. I will get my fitness back. Fat or not fucking fat. I will. I. Will. Do. This. For me.

A good youtube resource.

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A good youtube resource.

If you got bored or desperate enough to visit my dissjointed blog on my shit website looking for something decent on BPD and other mental mental chicken oriental stuff, I have nothing. Zilch. But this guy does. I like his youtube channel and his approach to talking people through the mine field that is baa pppa ddda bppdaa bupda bupd .... yeah that. Y'know. Didn't wanna say it again. EUPD! That. That shit. I'm rambling. Check this ouuuuuuut mother fuckers: The Rewired Soul A

Anxiety makes you look like an ass hole.

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In Silence She Lingers.

The old moon is tarnished With smoke of the flood, The dead leaves are varnished With colour like blood. A treacherous smiler With teeth white as milk, A savage beguiler In sheathings of silk The sea creeps to pillage, She leaps on her prey; A child of the village Was murdered today. She came up to meet him In a smooth golden cloak, She choked him and beat him to death, for a joke. Her bright locks were tangled, She shouted for joy With one hand she stra

Solace

Fuck this.

Think on.

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Think on.

I have tried to be as subjective as possible in regards to a lot of the posts I write on here. Both considering those who are new to understanding mental health and those who are very educated and clued up on the matter, as well as being mindful of those who suffer. However as a BPD (borderline personality disorder) sufferer I wanted to write a post entirely on what it is like experiencing relationships and friendships from my view or rather ‘our’ view (for those out there w

Embracing The Benefits Of BPD.

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Embracing The Benefits Of BPD.

Believe it or not, you can embrace the benefits of borderline personality disorder (BPD). Borderline sufferers know the drawbacks of the diagnosis. On top of experiencing the difficult symptoms firsthand, we're also bombarded with BPD stigma, insults, premature judgment and ostracization. Most of what’s written about BPD is negative in nature -- borderline sufferers are portrayed as dangerous, irrational, impulsive, and hopeless. This is not one of those articles. This articl

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A good article about BPD.

Not a bad person. I always try to be honest about my mental health. My close friends, family and those who read my blog and Twitter feed are aware of my condition, along with my good days and bad ones too. It’s not an easy conversation to have, but it usually goes one of two ways; Me: “I’ve got something called borderline personality disorder.” Them: “Oh! ...what’s that, then?” Those conversations are always interesting. I tell them that before my diagnosis with borderline

Coffin Of Risks

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Coffin Of Risks

Consequences become meaningless when you don’t imagine you will continue to exist I sit atop my golden coffin of risks King of nihilism I cut people off like my blades to string Blind to what it means, what it will bring Because solitude seems safer My darkness is my haven, it has less impact, less reach My words are made of acid, they're caustic like bleach Hoping to clean up my mess Why did I do that? How do I stop? What button do I press? #bpd #risks #bpdrisks #solitude #b

Know the difference. Get ya facts straight.

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Know the difference. Get ya facts straight.

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) has no biases. It happens to both genders, all classes, and all races/ethnicities. In fact, it is widely theorized that beloved people such as Marilyn Monroe had BPD. One of the hardest parts of treating this disease is empathizing with those who struggle with it. Therefore, let’s take a look into what other authors with BPD (kudos to “Border __” the documentary listed below and Carrie-Lynne Davis) have provided in their wisdom an

Good article. BPD in a nut shell. Spot on.

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Good article. BPD in a nut shell. Spot on.

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) has no biases. It happens to both genders, all classes, and all races/ethnicities. In fact, it is widely theorized that beloved people such as Marilyn Monroe had BPD. One of the hardest parts of treating this disease is empathizing with those who struggle with it. Therefore, let’s take a look into what other authors with BPD (kudos to “Border __” the documentary listed below and Carrie-Lynne Davis) have provided in their wisdom an

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Intensely.

Heart Feeling Intensely Having a dominant mind, always thinking every moment, yet feelings come intensely and my heart feels them all with no exception. Pain, hurt, loss, suffering, all touch my heart entirely, it never rejects any of the feelings that come into it's being. Incessant and intense, delving into depths of my heart, opening the flood gates, allowing the sluice escape. Ripping, tearing, and wringing feelings and emotions, constantly terrorize this heart.

BPD world. A great independent resource.

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BPD world. A great independent resource.

I have been using this great website for my research. A good bunch of people run it. A link is below. 🙂 About BPDWORLD BPDWORLD was founded and created by Joshua Cole in March 2003. Joshua felt that there was very little specific support in respect of those with a diagnosis of personality disorder. Not only in the real world but also that of the Internet. Of cause, there were many websites that supported those with the better-known conditions like depression etc but nothing

Snippet from I Always Kept Secrets.

BPD therapy books. Good ones.

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BPD therapy books. Good ones.

Getting the research in. Educating myself deeper and deeper every day. Becoming more and more mindfull all the time. CBT and DBT skills are helping as is being around a good person. A genuinely good hearted honest soul. Still learning. I thoroughly recommend these books to anyone living with BPD or related issues and to anyone who in a relationship with, related to or living with someone in the grips of this beastly condition. Insight and empathy is everything. 🤣😂 #bpd #eup

Own ya shit, own ya magic 😉

Snake.

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Snake.

It's messy, all jumbled up inside, head's proper fucked up, mashed, noisy, stressy, from the H-bomb you dropped, remember, the one where you lied, the one where my entire life shook and rocked? Hard to see the truth, when the truth doesn't want to be seen, hard to trust when your heart's been smashed and broken, ripped at the seems, by the very one you thought you knew. Hard to find that same faith again, when you refuse to fall down and go insane again, when your san

Just being.